I’m not sure what’s going on with this story. I thought I had a nice rich platform to build on but I’m having a hard time finding any center here. Sorry for the writer’s-speak but that’s really where I’m at. Also, one of my biggest fears as a writer is that I’ll start repeating myself. It’s a tough fear to live with as far as things go. I write a preposterous amount of words and characters and to lose sleep over the idea that two characters from separate works share a similar storyline is a silly thing to do, but it’s not like it’s a conscious choice. It’s just one of the things I worry about.
So this story has me nervous, because it’s a lot like “You’re Allowed to Order Takeout” and it’s a lot like, “Continental Drift,” and I’m a little worried that I’m stuck in a rut of plotless character-study works. Two wasn’t bad, but now it’s getting silly. Of course you may not feel this way, you might see these stories as radically different, and there was a Matthew and Epp story in there but, well like I said, this isn’t a conscious choice, it’s just me worrying.
And, on top of everything else, I’ve been sick with a head cold. I’ve mentioned before how when I get a cold my brain shuts off and drifts in a marshmallow cloud. Rewriting alone is almost impossible as by the time I’ve reached the end of a paragraph I’ve completely lost track of what the opening sentence said. This sucks. The last time this happened before a deadline I waved off and opted to wait out my cold and finish the story later. I’m not going to do that this time. This time you get to see what my writing looks like when I can’t concentrate. Should be fun.